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Just a little Insecure

Do you ever have those days where you just aren’t sure you know what you’re doing?

I’ve been having a lot of those lately. And some serious reservations about IVF. It seems so backwards, to be shying away from the one thing my doctor is pretty sure is going to work for us, doesn’t it? Especially after NIAW and all the great posts and success stories that were shared. 

I haven’t gotten a period since our medicated cycle in January and I honestly feel like those meds just royally effed me up. I just haven’t felt like myself. I mean, I get it, you’re injecting yourself with hormones that your body isn’t producing. Obviously its going to have some effects – but I just haven’t been happy with the way I’ve been feeling.

I finally called my RE and had him give me a Provera Rx so that at least we could bring on a period and see what happens, but I’m still wavering about the whole IVF issue.

I don’t want to feel like I’ve been feeling when I’m starting the most important part of my life. It just doesn’t seem like the right move for me.

I’m just really torn I guess. 

I asked a friend of mine to lunch the other day to pick her brain about nutrition and if she thought I might be able to “fix” some things with a special diet and she’s given me some things to work on. So for now, I guess we focus on that and see what happens. We wouldn’t have been able to do IVF until November anyway – so we do have a little bit of time. 

In the mean time – I’ve decided to at least start our fundraising efforts. Whether we do IVF or adopt, it’s going to cost a pretty penny and we could use all the help we can get. 

I signed up as an Independent Consultant for Jamberry Nails and I’m loving it. It’s been so fun to share these new innovating nail wraps with my friends and I’ve been making pretty good money from it too. You can shop my site here:

I’ve got another idea brewing too, that I’ll probably release in the next couple of weeks. That one – I’m super excited about. 

NIAW: 10 Things I Want Family and Friends to Know About Infertility

So true!

Join the Movement to Show Your Support

Couldn’t have said this any better than this fabulous lady.

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Sometimes being supportive isn’t so much what you say to someone who’s struggling, but what you do.

A hug can say more in its simplicity than a whole monologue on how “what’s meant to be will be” and “you’ll be a mother someday, I just know it”.

There are so many ways we can support our fellow Infertiles this National Infertility Awareness Week, and many of them don’t require a word out of our mouths.


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It’s been a hot minute since I’ve posted, but I have a really good reason. Don’t get excited. I’m still not pregnant. Our January cycle was a big fat bust. It’s cool though, there’s been about 1,392 pregnancy announcements since then and I’m totally {cough} okay. 🙂 BUT. I did find out that I got an A in my first Master’s class. Yay. photo 2

AND. I found a new obsession. I’m going to share it with you, so that you can be obsessed too. You’re welcome. Enter Jamberry Nails.

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A lovely friend of mine sent me a Facebook message last month because she had been introduced to these and knew how obsessed I was with “those other” nail stickers. Bless her. Jamberry Nails are non-toxic nail wraps that you apply right over your natural nail. They can be used over acrylics or gels and are perfect for growing out short nails. The special material is pressure and heat activated to achieve a quick, easy, water-tight manicure that lasts way longer than a traditional manicure, as well as long as the aforementioned “other” nail sticker. The wraps are made in the USA, non-toxic/ latex-free, and never tested on animals. Each set of wraps is offered under a Buy 3, Get 1 Free special and comes with enough wraps to do your nails several times. You can easily get 2 manicures and 1-2 pedicures out of each set making each application just a few dollars. Not to mention that there are over 300 designs to choose from. PLUS. You can design your own via the Nail Art Studio. But I’ve gone ahead and done that for you, so no worries. One of the designs that Jamberry sells now is done in partnership with the Autism Society of America. They donate $2 of every purchase to the Autism Society and have already raised hundreds of thousands of dollars in the last year.

Autism Awareness Wraps

Autism Awareness Wraps

When I saw the autism wrap, I immediately wondered if there was an Infertility Awareness wrap, but there wasn’t. So I popped onto the Nail Art Studio to attempt to create my own. They came in the mail today and I’m so, so, so excited to put them on.

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Infertility Awareness Wraps made by Me!

I already get so many questions and compliments about my nail wraps, I’m hoping these bring even more attention, to my nails and to infertility awareness. {I’ll post another pic once I get these on and jammin’ tonight.}
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If you want to try them out, you can shop right from my personal Jamberry page. Your wraps typically ship in 3 days or less. Trust me, you’ll want to take advantage of the Buy 3, Get 1 deal though. After I ordered 1 set, I immediately wanted more. I’ve started to mix and match my manicures too, so I like to get combinations that have similar colors or patterns. {If you want the infertility awareness ones, e-mail me directly.} You can also connect to my Facebook page.

If you love Jamberry as much as I do, you can be the hostess for a Facebook based Jamberry party and earn hostess rewards {like free and/or discounted nails for yourself}. It’s really easy! We set up a Facebook event for your party,  where I can post lots more pictures and offer special deals and prizes. All you have to do is invite your friends and play along. I do all the work and you sit back and earn rewards while your friends get fabulous looking nails, too. Photo Mar 30, 8 49 38 PM

Or, if you become addicted {like I have}, you can join my team and become a consultant yourself. Becoming a consultant is a great way to earn extra cash while getting discounts on Jamberry for yourself too. Truthfully, if you’re going to wear them a lot you should sign up to be a consultant because everyone is going to want them once they see yours. I’ve had cashiers want them from me after admiring my nails as I signed my credit card slip and handed cards to people in the drive thru at Starbucks because they wanted some.

Why, you ask, am I sharing this with you?

Several reasons, actually. Because I’m seeing the potential for extra income. Because I have a huge target number hanging over my head to save $ for IVF and before I found Jamberry I didn’t know how we were going to get there. Because now, I know how it’s going to happen. And, because I know you want to have pretty nails.

I was a little nervous to get started because I haven’t done any direct sales before, but it’s been an easy and fun experience. It’s not every day that you find a product like Jamberry. Plus, it literally sells itself.

I’m sure you’re going to love them as much as I do! Check them out and let me know if you have any questions.

Hopefully we’ll have some news to share soon.

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Until then, I’ll just be over here admiring my pretty nails. 🙂


WARNING: Ranting in 3….2…1…

I’m sorry – but did I just really see a commercial for a medicine that eases the pain of intercourse for women who are going through menopause.


I’ll be that insurance companies would cover that too, right? Because women of any age deserve to have sex, but babies are luxuries.


I feel like punching something. 

See for yourself:


Mondays suck. I don’t have to tell you that. People know that.

Mondays with dentist appointments sucks even more. Especially when you wake up on that Monday with a headache because apparently since you fell on your face and broke your teeth you clench your jaw all night.

But what sucks even more than both of those Mondays are Mondays with dentist appointments with a very pregnant hygienist. I really wasn’t prepared to spend an hour of my day today with my face pressed into the very large belly of a girl who already makes me feel like a 5 yr old because I can’t seem to get the hang of flossing.

Kill me now.

Plan B….or K?

Honestly, the plans have changed so many times I don’t know what letter we’re even on anymore.

Obviously my lack of update may have clued you in that there is no update. Infertility is maybe one of the only places where no news is not necessarily good news.

After talking with the nurses for the 1,327th time we decided to just go ahead and schedule our IVF consultation. In some ways, I think I’m relieved about it because I feel like IVF will offer much more control. On the very other hand, I’m terrified, because it’s freaking IVF and it’s damn expensive.

We’ll obviously know more after our consult, but from talking to a couple of IF friends who go to our same clinic, I have a pretty good idea of what we’re looking at and it’s not pretty. I know we can apply for the financing, but I never intended to have a “baby mortgage” {which is what I keep calling it}. We’re considering some crowd-funding options, which I’m warming up to, but it still seems super awkward to ask friends, family and/or strangers to help us make a baby. God bless the people who do!

Anyway, so our consult is the 26th, but we’re likely looking at a May IVF cycle, so get your prayers and pocketbooks ready!

JK about that last part, sort of.

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